To let your mind wander, free from control is a very profound, and even a little scary experience. Like walking in the streets of New York for the first time where the tall buildings stand ominous and one can easily lost his way. It is ironic to realize that we immerse ourselves in thoughts with the intent of finding enlightenment. To actively seek out answers. To find reason.
But as our mind begins the slow descent towards the subconscious, a different scenario unfolds. We get confronted by memories and knowledge that can be both comforting and gives us sense of peace, or the complete opposite can be true. Hence, we try to avoid taking these kind of walks. We trained our minds to hold only the thoughts we can handle and to suppress unnecessary ideas that will threaten the internal milieu.
As we grow older, we have mastered this art. Historically, we are not permitted to say anything that comes to consciousness if it makes the other person feel uncomfortable, embarrassed or is hurtful. Thus even if it is the truth, we do not say it. Oftentimes, we choose an easier way out. We choose to say words that our fragile mind can handle. We opt to do and think of things that feel good for the ego. It is a basic human reflex. It is the way the mind is built. The sooner we realize this, the less judgmental, less vengeful and less bitter a person can be. In the light of this kind of understanding, we can be more forgiving, more compassionate, and a happier individual.
How can one attain a state of better understanding of the self?
Go into a corner. Shut the world off. And delve into the inner sanctum of the mind. Easier said than done. As most teachers in psychology or religion will tell his student, one can only reach the state of enlightenment when he masters himself. And we can do this by taking those little walks. Those introspective journeys. It will scare us at first. Makes us fearful of what unpleasantness we might find. Like opening a Pandora's box. This exercise might test our sanity. Weakens our resolve. Challenges our logic.
But after we conquer our deepest fears and shed light on the unknown, we can surely feel that sense of empowerment. It may be faint at first. Not very tangible. In time, as we grow confident in these short walks, we grow more certain of our selves. And we can be more understanding of the human nature.
I took a little walk today and I know i will never be the same again. Nope, I haven't come up with the perfect solution to end human suffering. Or the means to conquer time travel. But I learned something that is equally priceless: A means to end my own unhappiness. Will it work? Will I follow the path? Or, will I get lost in its sheer immensity? Only time can tell.
